ok, so if you read my blogs ((which you should)) you know that my dad has been in some bad health... this is the primary reason i've decided to go back to really focus and lose weight... that, and i'm too hot to be this fat.

well, i started last night... i went to

WEIGHT WATCHERS

i went last night... even though, i was already making up excuses in my head... it's dark, it's late, i'm tired... blah blah blah... but i just kicked myself in the ass ((not literally... i'm not THAT flexible)) and said, "YOU ARE GOING!" so, i went. i'm 15 lbs HEAVIER than my highest when i originally joined weight watchers... yup, you read it right... 15 lbs heavier. i felt totally gross... whatever this mental block i have is, i just have to move beyond it.

today was already a struggle... i was making up excuses about lunch this morning... i don't have time to pack it... blah blah blah... but i did it, i came in to work late with a packed lunch.

i went down to target and bought myself a little notebook that says travel/journey and definitions all over the front... *travel - to move or advance from one place to another* my favorite definition on the whole cover is one word...

PROGRESSION

i feel like it's appropriate 'cause this is going to be my weight loss journey and not my destination.

so, i've decided to make this public... i'm not going to tell you my starting weight, 'cause i'm terribly embarrassed.... but i am going to put my weekly losses ((or gains))... my successes ((and failures))... and hopefully, i will be able to overcome my setbacks instead of loosing my focus in them...

so, i am now the myspace kristie alley and this blog is the oprah show... ((how does it feel to be so rich... if even just in a group??)).